[he can sense maybe he's said something wrong by the way 9S emphasizes that. it's confusing to be told his coding is unlike anything he'd ever seen, that there is something different and then just be meant to accept it. connor is torn between knowing his code was meant to evolve to make decisions and new algorithms based on the data he obtains, and knowing there should be some sort of limit to keep him from ultimately going deviant. he knows there's no link or specific piece of coding they've narrowed it down to in the course of his investigation--any of the recovered deviants haven't been fully analyzed yet.
he's conflicted. which is in itself a feeling, but more easily chalked up to something that still is within the parameters of his case. he's had conflicting priorities to handle before.
but the solution...the solution makes him feel that same tightness in his chest again without any warning or error code flashing on his hud. the thought of losing his memories and--progress with hank?
it's devastating to consider. it makes him feel--frightened? pervasively, and deeply sad, almost as sad as seeing him die.
his led flashes red, and he lifts his gaze to look resolutely at 9s.]
I--
[it would jeopardize the mission too, that's just it. he's not being completely deviant or irrational in saying this, even if his reasoning is truly selfish at its core.]
I can't do that.
[he pulls his hand away, terminating the connection abruptly. as if the very idea of it happening even accidentally while connected to 9S is too much to handle.]
no subject
[he can sense maybe he's said something wrong by the way 9S emphasizes that. it's confusing to be told his coding is unlike anything he'd ever seen, that there is something different and then just be meant to accept it. connor is torn between knowing his code was meant to evolve to make decisions and new algorithms based on the data he obtains, and knowing there should be some sort of limit to keep him from ultimately going deviant. he knows there's no link or specific piece of coding they've narrowed it down to in the course of his investigation--any of the recovered deviants haven't been fully analyzed yet.
he's conflicted. which is in itself a feeling, but more easily chalked up to something that still is within the parameters of his case. he's had conflicting priorities to handle before.
but the solution...the solution makes him feel that same tightness in his chest again without any warning or error code flashing on his hud. the thought of losing his memories and--progress with hank?
it's devastating to consider. it makes him feel--frightened? pervasively, and deeply sad, almost as sad as seeing him die.
his led flashes red, and he lifts his gaze to look resolutely at 9s.]
I--
[it would jeopardize the mission too, that's just it. he's not being completely deviant or irrational in saying this, even if his reasoning is truly selfish at its core.]
I can't do that.
[he pulls his hand away, terminating the connection abruptly. as if the very idea of it happening even accidentally while connected to 9S is too much to handle.]
It would be a setback for both of us.
[i don't want to lose him again.]