It would. I guess I’m having a hard time coming to terms with actually engaging in sexual relations with anyone here. Having sex just to have it because they say we have to... it doesn’t sit well with me.
That appears to be a common human response as well. Would it....help in some way to experience it for the sake of understanding why humans fixate on it? Just to say you’ve done the same? Or is it more personal?
I think it’s a bit of both. While I was never utilized like this, part of my programming was providing sexually for my owner. I think part of it has me hesitating and there’s other things.
[Aka Markus.]
Of course. Whatever you’re comfortable telling me, Connor.
If you'd like to elaborate on "other things"....I would also listen for you, Simon. It's become apparent through my actions with the Li--
[he cuts himself off. oops.]
With my current sexual partner--that even if we were not programmed as such, there are ways to adapt and engage.
[maybe if he wasn't so hellbent on continuing his crusade he'd realize that's exactly how deviancy works. duh.]
I would tell you that...it's pleasant to feel useful in a physical capacity. I was assured multiple times that I was good at my actions and that I was...desireable. That was unusual to me. To any android, I would imagine, except one who was forced into these circumstances already.
[he's not going to disrespect north by mentioning her directly.]
[What was that? Hmmm... hiding who he was talking about, it seems strange. Why would a machine care about keeping that secret? HMMM.]
I'm not sure it would be worth discussing. You would just say it's a simulation and not real... it would be easier if that were true.
[Yes. It's smart to not mention North. Good boy, Connor.]
That makes sense. In a consenting sexual encounter being told you're doing well would be nice. So you felt pleasure being desired and performing well- did you like that?
I appreciate it, but I don't think I'm comfortable talking about it. Not right now.
[He's told one person, sort of... but he feels like Connor would know exactly what was up if he mentioned anything. So. No details for Mr. Connor.]
Sometimes experience is better than any research we could ever do, but I'm glad you enjoyed it. I hope you'll continue to follow what you want. Even if you did it because of this place, you still chose it yourself.
Alright. If you change your mind, you know how to reach me.
[there’s a small clicking noise in his throat, almost like a non-fully uttered rebuttal that just died somewhere halfway in his vocal processors and throat.]
I did it because it was a logical progression of an existing interaction. I just...wanted to ensure our safety. It wouldn’t be preferable for danger to befall either of us at this juncture.
[he doesn't really know anything else. lingering on that thought is the closest thing to uncomfortable that he can possibly come up with at this juncture.]
I tried to explain it to North, but my experience and design is different than every other android.
I think regardless of my mission, we should keep close.
I do need to learn from you. That's what I was meant to do from the start. But given the circumstances and everything that's changed in this case, I think an...alliance would be wise.
Ah. So I assume he doesn't think highly of us deviants then?
Then you're contracted? It does sound convenient for you both, since you already have a relationship. Easier than finding someone here you won't know as well.
Actually...he encourages it, now. There was a difficult start, but he played a pivotal part in allowing my future assistance to come to fruition. I may not remember it, but the way he tells it? I only found Jericho because of him.
Yes. It seemed like the easiest option to continue our progress together and ensure his safety. It's much more difficult for the humans, I think.
Is there anyone you've considered? You have the advantage, like me.
[Simon would consider Connor finding Jericho a double edged knife. Yes he came to them and was brought to their side which helped in the end... but a lot of their people died in the raid on Jericho too.]
I'm glad he wants you to be your own person, Connor. I think I'd like to meet him sometime, even if our relations with police haven't been good.
And no, not yet, but I would like to contract someone soon. If not multiple. It only makes sense I help others if I can, there's no need for anyone to be in the Down if all of us Dominants contract people.
[simon's device will ping with a text notification--a smiley face and his apartment number.]
That's very generous of you. I hadn't considered the merits of contracting multiples--if only due to the space of our accommodations. I suppose we don't need the rest a bedroom provides, leaving room for two.
Will you be assisting North, or is she making her own arrangements?
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Would you like to talk about it?
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I think I might. Would you be willing to listen?
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[Aka Markus.]
Of course. Whatever you’re comfortable telling me, Connor.
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[he cuts himself off. oops.]
With my current sexual partner--that even if we were not programmed as such, there are ways to adapt and engage.
[maybe if he wasn't so hellbent on continuing his crusade he'd realize that's exactly how deviancy works. duh.]
I would tell you that...it's pleasant to feel useful in a physical capacity. I was assured multiple times that I was good at my actions and that I was...desireable. That was unusual to me. To any android, I would imagine, except one who was forced into these circumstances already.
[he's not going to disrespect north by mentioning her directly.]
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I'm not sure it would be worth discussing. You would just say it's a simulation and not real... it would be easier if that were true.
[Yes. It's smart to not mention North. Good boy, Connor.]
That makes sense. In a consenting sexual encounter being told you're doing well would be nice. So you felt pleasure being desired and performing well- did you like that?
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[is there light teasing in his voice, being literal in a good sense for a change? yes, there is. c'mon simon just tell him.
when it comes to his own, he's quiet for a bit before finally answering a lot softer and more timidly than before.]
I am...eager to gather data on more encounters of a similar nature. Through experience, not just discussion.
But it's simplest to just say yes.
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[He's told one person, sort of... but he feels like Connor would know exactly what was up if he mentioned anything. So. No details for Mr. Connor.]
Sometimes experience is better than any research we could ever do, but I'm glad you enjoyed it. I hope you'll continue to follow what you want. Even if you did it because of this place, you still chose it yourself.
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[there’s a small clicking noise in his throat, almost like a non-fully uttered rebuttal that just died somewhere halfway in his vocal processors and throat.]
I did it because it was a logical progression of an existing interaction. I just...wanted to ensure our safety. It wouldn’t be preferable for danger to befall either of us at this juncture.
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[This sure sounds like a lot of logical excuses, Connor.]
You're right, but it sounds more like you're trying to convince yourself of this, not me.
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[the lady doth protest. it’s especially apparent in his voice.]
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Maybe I am.
But you could be too. It’s alright to be wrong.
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[he doesn't really know anything else. lingering on that thought is the closest thing to uncomfortable that he can possibly come up with at this juncture.]
I tried to explain it to North, but my experience and design is different than every other android.
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You are still one of us, no matter what. I hope regardless we can learn from each other, that we can be friends.
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I do need to learn from you. That's what I was meant to do from the start. But given the circumstances and everything that's changed in this case, I think an...alliance would be wise.
[close enough. maybe. sorta.]
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Why not a friendship?
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Uneven footing may not be the most stable start to a friendship, but it's a start.
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Everyone needs to start somewhere.
[and they usually do that by offering up some piece of information as a token. a way to bond.]
That’s what I’ve learned from one of the relationships I’ve developed over the course of my mission. With—a human. His name is Lieutenant Anderson.
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Is he here with you too?
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He's here. So is his dog. I offered them both a place to stay seeing as I have little use for it myself. It only seemed fair.
[cue simon realizing the only way to do that is if hank is a sub and there's a contract in place in 3....2....1....]
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Then you're contracted? It does sound convenient for you both, since you already have a relationship. Easier than finding someone here you won't know as well.
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Yes. It seemed like the easiest option to continue our progress together and ensure his safety. It's much more difficult for the humans, I think.
Is there anyone you've considered? You have the advantage, like me.
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I'm glad he wants you to be your own person, Connor. I think I'd like to meet him sometime, even if our relations with police haven't been good.
And no, not yet, but I would like to contract someone soon. If not multiple. It only makes sense I help others if I can, there's no need for anyone to be in the Down if all of us Dominants contract people.
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[simon's device will ping with a text notification--a smiley face and his apartment number.]
That's very generous of you. I hadn't considered the merits of contracting multiples--if only due to the space of our accommodations. I suppose we don't need the rest a bedroom provides, leaving room for two.
Will you be assisting North, or is she making her own arrangements?
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We can also buy our submissives their own places if we need to, or get a bigger place. If we have the means.
I've offered to help her a few times, but she always turns them down.
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